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8/12/05 07:06 pm - Homophobia

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most: love.

Repost this if you belive homophobia is wrong.

8/6/05 04:23 pm - The College Post

This is the big one.

The College Post

Scary, I know.

Anyway, I had Summer Freshman Orientation on July 22nd. I found out my class schedule and who my roommates are. I have two, since I am in a triple. I'm taking Calculus 1, Reading Poetry and Fiction, Wind Ensemble, First Year Symposium, and Intermediate Spanish 1. First Year Symposium is a class that all the freshman take. I'm in the Writing Spaces class. I hear there's going to be TONS of writing! >.< Oh well.

I've been taking tons of pictures lately. Now that all my friends and I are not going to see each other everyday like we normally did, it's going to be so weird in college. I decided that I wanted to take more pictures of my friends and I hanging out. I have to put up pictures from my friend, Maura's surprise birthday party for people later, so maybe I'll do a separate post later.

My mom came home from a three week graduate course at Notre Dame. It's weird. I did miss her, but when she came home, I wasn't DYING to see her. I know that sounds cruel, but I probably would not have minded if she stayed another week. My dad was the only adult in my life for those weeks and I hardly ever saw him, b/c by the time he got home, I would be at a friend's house or at work or something. B/c of both of these factors, I decided that I can live without my parents. I know this sounds stupid, but it was a strange realization for me. I never was freaking out without my mom and dad. I think that if I was really homesick, it wouldn't be for my parents, but for my house and my friends. And my own room. That will be missed sorely.

So, my actual thoughts on college? Well, I'm really freaking excited! I can't wait. The only thing I can wait for is all my friends leaving. Ash and Bri leave on the 16th. Elissa leaves sometime before that. ABE. I love these girls soooooooo much and I'm gonna miss them soooooooooo much. I love all my other friends soooooooo much, but they're leaving after me or staying in St. Paul, so it won't be as hard.

I move in the 27th. I really can't wait. All this anticipation is annoying. I hate it. Next week I'm going shopping with my mom for anything I'm going to need in college. That day is gonna be so fun!


<3 my flist. Even if I don't hear from you too often!!  =)

7/24/05 07:41 pm

So, the Charlie and the Chocolate Factory link didn't work. Oh well. They're still there. That's good.

7/24/05 07:28 pm

Hi. Time for more icons! Yay! I think . . . 2 Moulin Rouge and 5 Charlie? Oh, and 3 Star Wars. Yeah, that's right. Here they are:


Sample:
 

Moulin Rouge )

7/18/05 11:36 am

So, yeah, today is my 18th birthday! And</b></a>[info][info]drunken_hobbit's as well!! YAY FOR LAUREN!! 16 is a big year, have fun!!!!!! Here's a birthday present for you:

AND

Hope you like them!!

So, last night I saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and I am in love with it. I swear to God. I especially LOVE Mike Teevee.
He has dimples EVERYTIME he talks!!!!!!! SOOO CUTE!!



I've decided I'm going to post a
</span>Read more... ). Enjoy.

In other news, I finished Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince on Saturday (I couldn't put it down). Here are my
thoughts (MAJOR, MAJOR SPOILERS!!!!!!!!!!!) ) on the book.

MUCH LOVE FOR LAUREN AND HARRY POTTER AND CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY TODAY!!!!!!

MOODS:
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CHEERFUL, AWAKE, REFRESHED, AND HUNGRY

I think I'm gonna make Harry Potter AND Charlie mood sets later. If I have time. A lot of time.

7/15/05 08:16 pm

I stole this from [info]saihara

</span>RULES:
1. Put your birth month in an entry.
2. Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you. (in my case, I made the text smaller)
3. Bold all that apply most to you.
4. Put all twelve months under a journal cut.

JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.


[info]All the other months . . . )

6/27/05 08:44 pm

So, hi. I haven't updated on my life in a really long time. Like, I just do this journal to do media stuff, which is cool, but I think I might try using it as a journal for once.

My summer so far )

So that's what my summer has been so far. A lotta work, but a lotta play. I can't wait until my 18th birthday, which is on the 18th. I'm hoping to do something really exciting, since it's my golden b-day.

Wow. Air Force One just ended and I'm really sad. I started crying when the one guy took the bullet for the president and then when the mom was taken hostage. Man. That movie was really intense.

MOODS:
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MELLOW, HOT, AND SAD

6/27/05 03:43 pm

Finally. Here are my prom pictures. )

6/22/05 02:15 pm

Stole this from [info]vinyamar


</span>
Survey )
</p>

In other news, I'm back from New York City. It was majorly fun. I'll post more later. I'm really lazy after doing that survey.

MOODS:
, , AND
CALM, LAZY, AND OKAY


6/13/05 03:34 pm

I'm pretty upset because right when I decided that I would finally post my prom pictures, the fucking scanner doesn't work. Does anybody even care, though? I mean, seriously.

6/2/05 11:26 pm

I haven't updated for a while.

I finally have my prom pictures, but I haven't scanned them yet. I'm planning on doing it this weekend.

I just remembered that I promised a LONG time ago to post some icons, so here they are:

Beck )

Chevelle )

Hot Hot Heat )

Kaiser Chiefs )

Keane )

Relient K )

Smashing Pumpkins )

Snow Patrol )

Steriogram )

Straylight Run )

The Exies )

Tim Mahoney )

Unwritten Law )

Weezer )

There you go.

Now someone will comment. I'm sure.

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MOODS:
AND

CRANKY AND DISCONTENT

5/11/05 03:45 pm

STOLE FROM: [info]neesha123
If you've seen over 100 movies, you qualify as a movie whore!
Put an "x" what to you've seen and add five more!

Movie meme! )
I've seen 120 movies! I'M A MOVIE WHORE!!!! YAAAAYYYYY!! My mom would be so proud.

I promise I'll post Prom stuff soon!!! I have to develop my pictures first and I want to do a huge entry for all of it. I took tons of pictures, so be ready!! =D

I just got Weezer's new CD yesterday, and it's really good. I really like it. They don't sound like they used to, though. This new stuff sounds more involved, which isn't like Rivers. Like there's more music and it's definitely different. I guess 4 years can do that to a person. Anybody else get it?

I'm too lasy to do my Dom moods . . . . . .
[info]

5/4/05 04:28 pm

Hey everyone. I made a new layout b/c I was really bored of the old one. I think I'm gonna be changing the layout every couple days, just to keep things interesting. Not the way the journals are, but the pics in the background.

I gotta play at the Twins game later for band and I don't want to. AT ALL. I'm missing LOST, so now I have to tape it. DAMN.

School's going better now. I'm out of my rut. I have to write my senior speech, which I am seriously dreading. It's not that it will be hard for me to speak in front of everything, but I just want my speech to ROCK . . . REALLY HARD. I have a feeling it's not gonna be interesting. I have to start working on it more soon since it's next Wednesday. Meh.

(I have to remember to print out the St. Kate's photos for my mom for Mother's Day!!)

I'm gonna be putting new icons in, too. So that will be a change. I think I need change right now. Thinking of my new layout and soon to be new default icons. I wish I could have more than 3 icons . . .

MOODS:
, , AND
CREATIVE, MELLOW, AND AWAKE

5/3/05 10:00 pm

Hi, my name is Emily and I'm obsessed with the KAISER CHIEFS. I absolutely LOVE them. I just got their CD, Employment, on Sunday, and I've been listening to it non-stop. Wow. I love them. To death. And it's so maddening b/c I found out that they were on the OC on Thursday and I'm really mad b/c I love KC, but not so much the OC anymore. I wish I could have found my love of the KC BEFORE they were on the OC, so I could watch it and enjoy it for once. Anywho . . . I'm also kinda upset b/c I found out they're touring this spring and they're coming to First Ave on June 1st, but you know what?????? IT'S AN 18+ show and I won't be 18 until JULY!!!!!! I was sooooo mad!!!!! I can't go to the Kaiser Chiefs concert b/c my birthday is a month and a half after they come. Damn it. And the tickets were only $11, too!!!!!!!!

In my new I LOVE THE KAISER CHIEFS mood, I made a whole big set of icons. But I still need to make more. The icons are of all the bands I've been obsessing over lately. They'll be up sometime this next week. I want to put a whole group of them up instead of just afew a day.With the exception of this one:



and this one:



Well, they're like the same one, but not really. ELISSA: THEY'RE FOR YOU!!!!!! YAY!!!!!

MOODS:
, , AND
DORKY, PLEASED, AND SLEEPY

4/28/05 05:36 pm

Hahahahahhaahah!!! I went to this site: http://lovecalculator.com
And got these results:

Emily Balamut + Dominic Monaghan = 95% chance of success!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love Calculator Results (%) )


I also went to this site: celebmatch.com
Instead of names, this site uses birthdates.

Celeb Match Results (%) WITH PICS!! )

ARGH. I don't want to do anymore . . . .

4/25/05 03:45 pm

I thought this was really amusing:

Harry Potter amusing memes )

Yeah, I know . . . All of those are so like me.

MOOD:
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AMUSED

4/21/05 05:37 pm

Hey everyone! I know I haven't updated forever. I have had a lot of not fun stuff happening lately. Most of which has to do with prom. But it's ironic, b/c I'm still really excited about it! I mean, who care if I don't have a date, right? I'm not the only one in my group who doesn't have a date, so I think I'll live. People coming: Katie and Sam, Ali and Scott, Me, Maura, Karen, and maybe Elissa and Vitality (pronounced VITALY). I hope Elissa does come!! ELISSA, IF YOU CAN HEAR/READ THIS: COME TO PROM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anywho . . . I just went and picked up my dress today after school with my mom.

PROM DRESS HAPPINESS )

So, I was thinking gold shoes, earrings (either huge hoop ones or chandelier), and a gold chain (necklace). FLIST: Is this a good idea?
Tell me what you think! YAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!

DAMN IT. I completely forgot about the stupid economics test tomorrow! I better not fuck it up, b/c I'm already at a B-. I need to pull my grade up. At least I'm not getting a D anymore . . .

MOODS:
, , AND

CHIPPER, EXCITED, AND NERVOUS





4/6/05 08:15 pm

OH MY GOD.

One word: LOST. Holy shiz-nizzle. Tonight's episode unbelievable!

 

 Spoilers! )

 

MOODS:

, , , AND

CONTEMPLATIVE, CONTENT, GIDDY, AND EXCITED

3/28/05 09:14 pm

I REALLY  don't want to go to school tomorrow. I mean, Spring Break was nothing extremely special, I just got to sleep in. Which was awesome!

I went shopping today at the MOA. It was fun. I went with Kelly, Meghan, and Michael. My purchases included Finding Nemo, eyeliner, and a My Chemical Romance t-shirt from Hot Topic (my FAV'rite store evah. Yeah. Tha's right, tha's right . . .).

 

My Chemical Romance with me in it )

 

What the shirt says )

So. Yeah. BLAH.

 

MOODS:

, , , AND 

FULL, DRAINED, CYNICAL, AND BLAH

3/26/05 10:05 pm

I'm really bored right now, waiting for SNL to start, so I decided to update. DOOOT DOOOT DOOOT. (That was me singing.)

 

Yesterday, I took my double exposure shots for photography. I think I fucked them up. Oh well.

 

At my grandma's today, I obssessed over my 7 month old cousin, Alex. She is the cutest thing I have ever seen. You know how sometimes babies are really hideous, and you say, "oh cute!" anyways. Well, she actually is extremely adorable! She has these piercing blue eyes that are just gorgeous.

 

Speaking of piercing blue eyes, I realized today that I have been encountering Elijah Wood a lot lately. It's strange. Like, I'm dying to go Sin City. Not b/c he's in it or anything, but he is in it which is an added plus. But seriously, I think I'm gonna go try and see it at midnight on friday. And also, I started this book today called, Everything Is Illuminated and it turns out that there's a movie that he's in that based off this book, which is REALLY good so far. And also, he's in Hooligans, which is looking to be great. I'm just ELIJAH WOODED out right now!! Not really, though. ELIJAH = <3

But not as much as Dommie!! DOM = <3333333333333333333   ^_~

 

 

MOODS:

, , , AND

 

BORED, NERVOUS, RESTLESS, AND HAPPY

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